The beauty of the mountains

Yesterday, or maybe I should say today morning, me and some of my friends, left the mandatory for toochal at 2 :00 am. We were back at 5:00 am and I think I had a good time with them. The mountains were so beautiful at night and the sky was so clear, no one was there except us and when we beacame quiet, the silence was more than to be described, the city was under a cloud of dust and smoke but the sky above it was so blue and clean, and it reminded us of the violence and badness over the city and the pureness of the heavens above it, of how we have polluted this world with our minds and our selfishness.
Are we ever going to learn? Man has always lived with violence and selfishness. 5000 years ago we had wars and we killed, now in the 21st centuary, we have wars and we kill. Aren't we all responsible for this, just as much as others or do you think that our leaders and governers our more responsible, isn't this a kind of selfishness itself, can we see this, as if we are seeing a tree, a flower or a mountain. Do we see life, like we see the beauty in a mountain. Have we ever seen life, like this, have we ever ?

me and ME

Yesterday I had a great sensation in me, which I couldnt control, I know why but I shouldn't say its reason. So what can I do? Sometimes you need to ask something from someone, but asking it has a cosequence which is worse, so in a sitiuation like this you are to forget about it completely, and Iam in such a situation and just as I should Iam forgetting about it completely. But I like to some how remember this day, this is why I have chosen todays title. I hope to forget.

I've just given my DS exam.

Hell of an exam, it was.
I hate it when you have studied the subject but your study is not examinated in the exam. I call this sort of exam "Mozakhraf".
I have decided to leave thinking about it to never. I mean Iam never going to think about it again, this way Iam completely ready to do what I should do, and I become completely new. Iam going to study Eng. math tonight and if I can I will study Assembly...
The hell with this, Iam always writing what Iam going to do later. I never say what Iam doing now.
Now Iam writing this post, at the same time Iam thinking about what to write next, you see Iam always thinking of the future, what happens if I stop thinking of the future???
Enough for today ha.

How come I have Internet on Friday?

Well Iam at IKIU in my dad's room and while he does what he does Iam using the Internet on his computer. This is how. I've got alot to do. Excluding my exam which is tomorrow, I have way a lot to do. No deal.
I have seen a few blogs written by my friends and I have learned to write more easily.
I want to go home now, but my dad insists on staying here, because he wants to continue what he was doing. Let it be, what can I do.
I have an exam tomorrow, and I want to look over the subjects for an hour or two, I've prepared my ds Exercises so that I can give them to my instructor tomorrow.
Apart from studying my courses, perhaps the only things I do are reading j. Krishnamurti books and maybe a little bit of C++ coding, so that I can learn OOP.
I have recently noticed that my friends do alot more than me. Some of them work, some of them follow their personal interests very tightly, some of them do research and a few of them do all of these at the same time. I wish I could be like that, then I could be alot more usefull.
I can hope.
Enough for a weekend.

Choosing a title

You know choosing a title for a post you haven't thought about is hard, this is why Iam writing this part first, and when its finished choosing a title will probably be much easier. Thank to M.A's comment I learned to change the time and date of my post so it points to the date and time I wrote it. Iam learning little by little. I didn't go to two of my classes today, and lucky me, niether did the instructor.
This sort of thing happens when your allaf and you have nothing to do. So...
Enough for today...

I got an exam in 15 mins

Its Sunday, and I am back, I stayed at home on Saturday and the only things I studied at home was a bit of ds Ch4 and Probability. No deal. I heard that our instructor probably isn't going to take an exam, but I dont realy care alot. I had to study it completely someday. Any way I got a ds exam tomorrow and still I want to have a good day.
Wanting something which can't happen, is'nt it foolish. Is wanting completely foolish?
Till Tomorrow...

Its Wednesday again

Its wednesday again and Iam going home to my parents after a whole week of living in Tehran. I don't know how my friends stay here for month after month. I got a exam next Sunday and another next Monday. Iam going to read Ch4 of my Data str. book and I will try to sudy Elec. circuits, and maybe I will even study a bit of Probability this weekend.
Sometimes You see somethings from friends you cant believe, sometimes you get hurt, sometimes you hurt, but at all times you are still friends, I dont want to say that we should keep up hurting eachother because we are friends I want to point out the contradiction which lies in saying I got hurt by my friend or I hurt my friend of course not phisicaly but mentally. Why do you hurt a friend or Why are you still a friend of someone who hurts you? Of course most the time we have good feelings when we are with our friends but there are times at which we hurt each other.
I have written less than yesterday and I'll be back Saturday.

Avval Bar( first time )

I woke up at 7:00Am.
Someone had turned on the light and it was straight in my eyes, I felt like I was going to have a headacke, but anyhow I got up and this new day started. I had a cup of coffee with M.A* and it made me realy better, I felt like I wanted the day to continue, At 10:30 our Eng. Math class started, It was great, I realy like this math class. I was feeling realy good after the class, but going to the Data Structure class is a nightmare, In this class of classes the instructor never instructs you he just dictates some facts to you. Some of my class mates dont care but I cant bare it.
Let's see some facts together, When we see something, if we realy see it there should be no difference between what you see and what someone else sees, so lets be related to each other in a manner in which no one sees anything different than the others, in this seeing there is no place for disagreement, there is no place for an indivigual, there is no difference between what I see and what you see we both see the same thing we are a whole none of us is different from the other and because of this love is between us, there is no room for selfishness, for anger, for fear, we are a whole, none of us will say anything because we are all seeing the same thing, in this seeing only awareness exists, not the one who is aware. when awareness exists the mind is quiet it is seeing everything just as it is so there is no subject for the mind to ponder on,there exists no contradiction between the things that the mind sees. seeing is very different from believing, when we believe something it goes to our memory, and we start to take our actions on its basis. There are many things in our memory that our actions are based on. so our actions come from our memory. we nearly never take actions upon awareness( except when we are hungry for example ) so our actions come from beliefs, beliefs from the past. our actions are dead but life is new every second.
I am sorry, I will try to write less. its my first time anyway.
* M.A : Mohammad Alinia

First Post

This is his first post that I (Mohammad) am writing for him. I hope he keeps writing for years ;)