Exposure 3 (The End)

Hi!
Since Exposure 2, Exposure 3 has lingered in my mind; and I've thought and thought of how to explain the "I", yet knowing that I am incapable of explaining, so I thought of examples and other things among the many possible; and my decision is made, the best way to discuss the matters at hand is to talk directly and see the matter while we are in relation to each other. If this is of importance then it will be discussed when that importance is seen by both parties of a discussion, thus leading this matter in my way is in a way defeating the purpose. It is of course no secret, yet a secret that is been told many times and understood by few. See how Molana describes this situation:

من گنگ خواب دیده و عالم تمام کر /
من عاجزم ز گفتن و خلق از شنیدنش

If Molana can't explain it even though he has seen it then who am I to explain it when I know better that anybody that I haven't seen it. So I quit the telling knowing you quited the listening earlier and maybe I quited listening even earlier than you did; so I am sorry for the interruption and I'll get on with this thing as I always did.

Now

• The urge to be, live, and take my part in the nature of the most beautiful time of year. The images of springs and lakes, with clear green trees and blue cloudy skies, the beauty of dusk and dawn, the clear air of a beautiful spring, takes long walks in my head.
• The necessity of visiting the International Book Fair, with it's hard walks, and my poor pocket.
• The urge to shoot and learn from shooting new photos in the beauty of nature and complexity of the book fair.
• The force to give in two projects by Saturday.
• The force to study and exercise for tomorrow's two exams.
• The homeworks I missed and the ones waiting to be missed or perhaps at most handed in late!

If this is life, and it certainly is, and I love it so much that I wouldn't want to miss a second then there is no point in complaining and I certainly ain't.
I'll try to compromise between my expectations of my academic and nature-driven life.
Yes, that's what I'll do.

Exposure 2

For reasons of which the correctness and completeness may be, and are doubted, comments left upon the previous post encourage me to try and explain some things.
For many a years this soul has had this state of uncertainty and only in the past few months has it had the chance to approach itself with less fear; thus you may see it now, as more honest and truthful to those close to him. He has feared the exposure of the depth of his mind and feelings for over ten years at the least.
While reading Exposure, you might have noticed, and it was noticed, that there was the use of many “I”s; thus an important question arose : Who is “I”?
The question might come in contrast to another question, more frequently asked: Who am I? The latter asked by “I”, while one may definitely question of who is asking “Who is “I”?”
“I” is scared, fearful, ashamed, angry, and a lot lot more, and in Exposure it is “I” trying to solve the problem of his shame and fear, he is seeking an answer to his question, in hope of decreasing his fright, anger, shame, and pain, or maybe getting rid of it all, to live happily, secure with bravery, tender feelings and no pain.
Yet again, who is “I”?
Without doubt the question “Who am I?” is asked by I, so the first question free of “I” is “Who is “I”?”. Other questions, also free of “I” and maybe somewhat prior to the afore mentioned are: What is fear? What is shame? What is anger?